Thursday, October 9, 2008

Keeping up the pace

I have been feeling like I am caught up in a whirlwind. I felt this way a year ago exactly, like my life was moving way too quickly. The difference is that a year ago I felt that I was losing my life. This year I feel like it is a little out of control, but in a "How did I get this fabulous life?" way. 
I recognize that I got this life through a year of hard work and making changes on a very basic level. I changed my view of the world. I took responsibility for my life. I am still creating the life I want, but the hard work is starting to pay off. 
The feeling remains that it is all moving so fast. I want to savor the victory of getting into the program I wanted. But here I am at midterms, so there is no time to sit and feel anything. Which strikes me as odd considering the program is ABOUT feelings, being a MAC program and all.
I am pretty sure this means I am actually living my life instead of watching others live their lives and adjusting to their needs. But I still feel like I am missing something precious in my daily rush. 
In a random related thought, the pace of a foreign country is always different. I have not been to many, but the few I have spent any significant time in have always been slower. It seems like a typical American thing, all this rushing around. I would like to note, that I would give up work in order to slow my life down, but that's not realistic.
What I am really trying to do or say here is that I am trying to appreciate all that I have. I wish I had more time to process it all. 

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